Again, there are some questions that you should be okay with not having the answer to and let this be one. Pause for a moment of silence and release now! Literally, just let it go ALL! You will never know how your former narcissist welcomed your breakup. A narcissist will NEVER, NEVER see themselves as they are because they lack the ability to do so. Narcissists don’t see themselves as “parasites” here, rather we are the ones crawling on our slimy bellies after accepting all their love and kindness, and oh they love the pity party. They have multiple dolls who are willing to accept and nurture the idea that you and I are idiots for breaking up. Oh No, a narcissist has multiple dolls waiting to play with them and rebuild their overinflated ego. I told you before, you probably weren’t the only doll on your shelf! I suspect me or you, you have been abducted for a long time. It shows your best side when you still hope that something will change the narcissist but unfortunately honey, it won’t be your go. I’m sure you feel me about it, so that’s enough for you! It’s normal to want to feel like your absence is making a difference. That’s enough for me since the day I left. I realized how disgusting, horrible, vile, abusive, deceitful, lying, disrespectful, selfish, hypocritical, ignorant, stupid scumbag he was, and that was enough for me. I realized that I and my children deserve better.
We broke up in 2017 and until today I don’t know what the difference is and I don’t care. I don’t know if he realizes that our life would be 10000 times better without him. I don’t know if he realized that I had to go to save my life. I don’t know if he realized that I was strong enough to go. I don’t know what she thought as she passed me on the highway for a few weeks after we left and I couldn’t find a new way to work. I don’t know what my ex was thinking when he walked into that empty house after me and the kids left. We would like to know that they are hurting themselves for their destructive treatment of us but…. We’d love to know they’re sitting and crying over their beers when they leave us. Girl, I feel you on this! Don’t we all survivors want revenge? We all want to know that the narcissist experienced a sudden realization at our breakup that gave them great distress. You get stuck wanting to know the narcissist is hurting you as much as they hurt you. I promise it comes from the heart! I don’t know because I don’t care and frankly neither should you! This is where many people get derailed on the path to recovery. But to be completely transparent here, I don’t know! I swear I’m not stupid in the next chapter but if you’ve read anything I’ve written you know I say it, so keep reading…. Your departure was only met with indignation, I’m sure and the narcissist is probably getting your name on the coming of the kingdom from here. The narcissist sees your breakup as just an insult to them. I am proud of YOU for understanding that you deserve better, for taking these difficult steps towards recovery, for understanding that the narcissist is nothing more than an alien “parasite” that can destroy everything they touch. The parasite didn’t see your worth while they had you, so they’re definitely not going to try to understand or value you now. (59 Likes) How does a narcissist feel when his previous victim realizes his worth and realizes that the narcissist has absolutely no value and is nothing more than a parasite?